Hope that taken away~

Imagine today just a normal day like usual, but out of a sudden you receive a call saying that you won RM 1, 000, 000 (of course is not a scam) from a lucky draw. Then, they said they will be sending you a bank cheque by this afternoon and will give you a call when they are about to do it. So, your feeling now is really delighted and excited until you got the "light" feeling on your body mass where you feel you are like floating or flying in the air. LOL

Just like these~ HAHAHAHA

And for sure, you will be thinking the way of spending it by getting all the high technology gadgets and the luxury stuffs. So, you wait for time to come patiently and now it comes where you again receive the call from the same number. You picked up the phone and the same person told you," Hi Ms. X, sorry to inform you that we made a mistake as you may not be the winner for our lucky draw. We will have further investigation and back to you soon. Sorry. Bye." You are now stunted and seem like everything you thought before this all gone. Your heart is now broken into pieces, ~ping piang~

From this, what you see? The message I would like to deliver here is "Do not give any hope to people if you cannot be sure you can make it". Of course, the real story I experienced today not as the above story. But I am writing it out not meant to blame the person here, just to share out the thing I see and learn for today. Now, I am learning to see the positive parts of each happening and stop complaining about the bad or negative as I could not change it. 

Fishing needs patience~

   

Remember this??

Fishing game~

Bought this for my niece in Toy City, The Mines when I back to UPM for Hep B injection and to take the allowance claim forms. Yesterday I played with my niece and I realized this helps to train my patience as the plate keep turning and you need to be very focus and quick if you wanna get the fish!!! This tells me same goes to life. Need to be patience to wait for opportunity and grab it in hand once it comes. But for me to be patience is really hard to be done. I seriously lack of patience. Just like recently I had my course registration and due to my "superb concern" PA late account activation, I am left out at group 2 (Thurs whole day lab) for a course where all my friends (my gang) registered under group 1 (Tues whole day lab). And because of my impatience, I keep on disturbed my friends and coursemates. I felt so sorry to disturb them but I really run out of idea on solving it as I had already asked the malay coursemates see whether there will be chances for me to squeeze into group 1 or not but ended up the answer was NO! 

I had worried this matter for 3-4 days and keep on asking my gang of friends whether they want to change to group 2 or not. But ended up some of them do not response even they saw it. I feel very down. I know I am selfish because 9 of them already in group 1 and I am the only one in group 2. I should not ask them to be so sacrificed. I can't blame anyone as this is my own problem and I should solve it myself. So, I start to tell myself let go and let it be. I guess it would be a way for me to learn how to overcome my loneliness when my friends are not around me, learn to be alone in doing anything in uni and not to be so playful whenever I am free. Due to the free day we have will be different, so I could not join them for any outing and this is the main reason I disturbed them for the group changing. I also not sure this time my impatience is related to my babysitter job at home or not because my parents went travel and I need to help my sister to take care of her two little monsters. Taking care of kid and baby is really not an easy job. They are somehow annoying especially when you are having your own problems. But now, I feel much better and rethink back why I so impatience. I just can wait and see how for now. Nothing much I can do now I guessed as the things I should do already done. But I still waiting for a reply or may be a miracle or even a hope for my friends to change. Life should be full with hopes. *PRAY HARD*

The truth after 3 months intern..

After had my intern for 3 months plus, I realized the company not as bad as I thought before this. I had a bad image on this company just because I heard a lot of unreasonable rules which I was told by someone (A) before entering it. Well, for the DON'Tss listed before this it do exist just in certain cases. But still, I feel bad that I am not given the Sat off as I think trainee does deserve the one day off for one month. I had understood all these from yesterday lunch time where I had my lunch with my supervisor and production manager. We chatted and then only I found out most of unreasonable rules are reasonable. For instance, the rule saying do not back home sharp at 5pm just apply if you have not finish doing your work. My supervisor said A does not follow up the work she in charge of and back home. So, surely will be scolded. My supervisor asked me, "You see. You also back home sharp at 5pm but do you get scold?". Erm, true also as I started to back sharp at 5pm since 2nd month of working but I am not scolded by anyone. After the chat, my supervisor had almost explained all the unreasonable rules by telling me the background stories. The lesson I gained from this is do not just listen to people before experienced it yourself. Different people will come out with different outcome. And this is the best example as A and I are totally different in attitude and etc so what we feel and get also different. My supervisor even said to me, "You go back and tell A that whatever bad's she got from here do not happened on you". LOL. My supervisor so bad right? But she is a kind lady actually. I do not really know what A did until my supervisor said so. 

My supervisor even asked me to promote this company to my juniors so they can have trainee. But frankly to say that, this company is not bad just the top management person's is not really good in managing. Have you ever seen a top management person SHOUTING and using a ruler beating the table LOUDLY until the whole office heard it?? This happened in my place. I never ever thought SHOUTING and BEATING the table using RULER is one of the way of management. I thought this will only happened at home when facing the children. OMG!! The voice is so damn annoying as I am thinking and doing my LI report. Besides the top management person, some AUNTIES there are too annoying. When they very "pek chek" with their works and when I need to do printing using AUNTY's printer, I will be scolded as she said "AIYO, YOU DID NOT SEE I USING IT MEH? YOU SEE NOW, WASTED MY LETTER HEAD PAPER". WTx. My place is at the back and her sit is at the front which is few rows from mine. So, how I can notice whether she using or not. Fine, from that day onward I walk to her place and see whether she using or not before I click print. I always remind myself not to repeat the same mistake for twice and I must do it because I feel annoyed when people scold me. You may think I'm so "siao jie" cannot be scolded. Ya, may be I am. There is also an aunty who always speaks out without thinking twice using her brain and always hurt people by her words. I also kena from her. But I do not really remember what was that. And she so damn kepo. Keep on asking me, you taking your hp playing FB ar? Even I really playing FB, I also won't tell you lo. So damn stupid. Haiz. So, if junior really ask me about this company I will just tell the truth.

KLCC Jalan-jalan & Makan-makan..

After one month plus intern, this was the first time (18 Mar) I stepped back to KL area ... My mission was to HUNT FOR FOODS and mum & sis were to "LOOK" for branded handbag.. Just "LOOK" only not buying it.. Because mum going to Eastern Europe on May, so she want to compare the price.. Hehe..

Here we come, KLCC!!!

Lunch at Charlie Brown Cafe..

Soh nini with Charlie Brown..

Snoopy hot chocolate.. Its cute but kinda sweet..

My mum, sis & me..
(Foods- So so only.. 6.5/10)

After lunch, we went for window shopping for LV, Gucci, Prada, Burberry, Coach, etc.. Then.. ended with desserts~

Durian puffs & durian pancakes~
YES!! WE ARE DURIAN'S LOVER~
LOL
(Durian puffs- 8/10 & Durian Pancakes Musang King- awesome 10/10)

Creme Brulee & Durian Snow Blend at Tong Pak Fu!!!
Again, DURIAN~
(Creme brulee- so so only 5.5/10.. Durian Snow Blend- nice but not awesome yet 8/10)

Soh nini at Candylicious..

SPM result???

SPM result released today.. For me, my SPM seem to be N-years ago.. Now, I'm 23 years old.. So my SPM was on 2007.. OMG.. Already 5 years ago.. I was thinking if I could back to that how good.. I might not be having this pathway right now.. My SPM result was 9As' 2Bs'.. Although not straight As' but I never use it to apply any scholarship or even matrix.. So dumb.. That time still "young" don't know what to choose for future.. Worried will regret after making decision.. So went for Form 6.. Then after Form 6, get into one of the choices.. So just go for it.. Sometimes, I blame myself why I can't made up my mind to choose one?? Why I can't stand for one?? When I was Form 2, I thought of being a lawyer (influenced by my friend and also HK series).. Then when I ended my SPM, I thought of being a pharmacist and even doctor also.. But now, I ended up with Food Science & Technology.. Haiz.. Speechless on myself...

My SHORT HAIR with my NERD SPEC!!!

After 2 months long never cut my hair.. Now is the time to cut it!!!

Before cut.. From this, into...

THIS!!!
So damn short!!!
And totally different than the hairstyle I want to cut!!!
Arrrggghhhh!!!

The DON'Tsss...

1. Do not "berkira" in all aspect..
2. Do not back sharp at 5pm..
3. Do not eat at pantry due to the foods' smell will spread off to the office..
4. Do not do anything without informing 'A' even photocopied the punch card..
   
5. Do not go back without informing 'A'..
6. Do not make the toilet smelly..
7. Do not get pregnant..
   
8. Do not write scientific term in your report..
9. Do not talk non work related topic and read newspaper even u finish ur work..
   

Although the DON'Tsss listed not exceed 10, somehow I feel majority of it are unreasonable..

First DON'T- At first I agreed with it because as an intern student, I should learn doing everything. But after one month, I feel that was rubbish. You asked people not to "kira", but ended up I think you are the most "BERKIRA" one. Every female management staffs deserved one Sat off each month, but DO I GET THE SAME TREAT? Just half day off on Sat once a month, you also cannot make it for me? WHO BERKIRA NOW? I am trainee but I deserved the same lo.

Second DON'T- This one I feel acceptable as every boss also hopes their workers to work hard for them. But the problem is I have finished all my work everyday before 5pm and I never make myself punch card at 5pm. I always back around 5.10pm to 5.15pm. But I guess, you will only want me to back at 5.30pm or even later. Please be considerate, from company to my house it takes me 30-40mins.

Third DON'T- This is not reasonable at all. Why can't eat at pantry and must not let the office have the foods' smell? Then for what having the pantry with microwave?

Fourth and Fifth DON'T- Both unreasonable one. I photocopied the punch card just a procedure needed by my uni and I had informed my supervisor. Such little thing also need to inform u? I guess u too free already. Go back also need to inform u? I already informed my supervisor. Inform to show appreciation. What shit theory it is??

Sixth DON'T- Whose shit and urine not smelly? =.=

Seventh DON'T- Just because you don't like baby and so had such DON'T listed. What nonsense!!

Eighth DON'T- The report I doing now obviously do not need a degree holder of Bac. Food Science and Tech to do. It is just a waste.

Ninth DON'T- 'A' keep on talking nonsense and read newspaper in the morning are DO in 'A' list but DON'T for the rest. Well, what to do? 'A' is in the top management. Speechless.

All these I knew by absorbing from surrounding and informed by someone in the office. I still not call into her room to face the music yet by the above DON'Tsss. But I guess, it will be soon. And now I know why everyone pushing themselves hard to the top just because being the top management one, no matter what you said it will be a theory for others to follow even though everyone know it is not logic at all.